Back when the tumblr blogging days were a thing on that hipster social media lifestyle... I'd write a letter to Universe every single year.
2017 was a year of change and its weird to say I knew going into it.
I had no idea that avenue would look like Nick interviewing with a company in Orange County and moving to Huntington Beach. I had no idea that it looked like picking up my camera again to help pass the long weeks of being in a long distance relationship. I had no idea I would listen to the Goal Digger Podcast and say "If she can do it, why can't I?" I didn't know I would have a dream that was within arms reach if I would just chase it.
I didn't know I would spend 6 months working 7 days a week working to make a dream happen. I would travel from Solvang to San Diego on the weekends. I would meet over 200 horses. I would meet so many amazing, spectacular, inspiring, hard-working, and influential people. I met people that believed in me and encouraged me to keep going. I would lose sleep, put friendships on old, and came to the conclusion that I didn't have time for the horses I worked so hard for. I didn't know my own relationship would hit rock bottom, and I didn't know to decide to pursue my dream full time would save it.
I didn't know I was going to have to tell Bodie I was moving, again, but to a city that was too far away and a place that would allow me to pursue my dream and be with Nick. I knew this change was going to be hard, but I truly didn't expect just how hard it was. I cried, a lot. I felt like a disappointment, I felt like I let everyone down, and felt like I was hurting people when in the reality I was just hurting myself.
I didn't know I would decide to sell Sawyer, that I would watch him leave in a trailer that wasn't mine, and look back at me as he pulled out of the ranch to head to San Luis Obispo. I didn't know I would feel heartbreak like I felt, or that I would randomly start crying more than once since.
I quit my job, sold my horse, and moved in with my boyfriend so I can take on the the title of Photographer.
A lot changed this year, but I wouldn't change it for the world.
Since moving to Huntington Beach, I am finally pursuing ME. The things I want, the goals I can have, the dreams I can chase. I can do things that make my heart happy and whole. I can better myself, my business, and my relationship. I have set myself up to be the best ME possible, and that should be everyone's goal in my opinion.
Being in this state has allowed me to dream BIGGER then I ever have before. It doesn't mean it'll be any easier or that I won't have to hustle any less then I already had been.
Call them my intentions, my dreams, my list, my letter. I make my goals for 2018, for my life, my heart, my mind, my career path. I believe by writing this I am making a promise, to at least try and to work hard because none of it will be handed to me, and anything is possible.
Here is my list for 2018:
1. continue to shed light + love to every person you meet. you’ll keep seeing the positivity it brings to your life.
2. get back in shape- not just to "be thin" I want to be fit
3. read again- lets start with at least 5 books this year
4. make more time for family and friends again
5. have a self care day at least once a week
6. accomplish ALL your business goals- its possible and you know it
7. don't go backwards, continue to grow, be the best you that you can be
8. continue to open your heart and let nick know just how loved he is
anything + everything is possible. some i may not accomplish, some i may know are already going to happen. but i believe in the power of this, whatever it is and wherever it comes from, it fuels me + i hope it fuels my next 365 days.
goodbye 2017. hello 2018
here are some of my favorite moments of 2017: